Well this is really the only place i can express myself without being judged so here it goes…. Have you ever gotten to a point in your life where you have totally forgotten what being happy feels like? And when i say happy i mean genuinely happy not its impostor which i like to call temporary happiness. Anyways, thats me right now….and it really sucks. I feel like im stuck in this never ending dark tunnel with not even a glimpse of how to find the light. The weird thing about all this is that the map showing me to the end of this tunnel is actually in my pocket. Its as simple as pulling it out and putting effort into freeing myself of this dark place i have wandered into. Yet…..im too scared to pull out that map. Silly huh? Hopefully im making sense to someone out there….i just needed to vent. Sorry.